"A pure heart, that’s what I long for. A heart that follows heart, after thee."
Cell group today was beyond amazing. No words can describe how strong the presence of the Holy Spirit was during that time at that place. I’ve never felt more stronger than before what The Lord spoke to me about and today, I had a confirmation from Him.
I was tremendously blessed by Isaiah for sharing his vision about me and praying for me. It was so unexpected and unbelievable how God can plant the same vision into someone else and use him to minister into my life. So many times, God has spoken to me about stepping out in faith and really begin to love unconditionally and serving fervently. But this wall built around my heart was so high and unbreakable like that of a titanium, so void of human feelings, just can’t seem to obey God’s words no matter how much I know what God wants to do in my life. I resisted so vehemently that it affects my relationship with Him. And it was so extremely hard for me to be genuine, for fear of hurt.
God wants me to step out of my insecurities and really surrender my whole self to Him. Not my will, but His will be done. But then again, did I obey Him? All this time I thought I was so strong, being able to withstand all emotional feelings that everything became numb to me but I was wrong. I am at my weakest point without me realizing. I am destroying myself without realization. I am so foolish.
I know and I know that God wants to use me to be a blessing to peoples’ lives. I know He wants me to rise up higher than I think I can. He knows I can but I doubt myself. Doubting myself is not of obedience to God, who has high expectations of me. Just like what Isaiah has prayed for me, there’s a fire burning inside me that God wants me to release. Slowly, I can feel the walls tearing down. Just that one touch from God, nothing else mattered nor matters anymore. I just want more of Him, and much less of myself.
It’s really time to wake up. Wake up from this foolishness. Time for me to break free from my own limitations that I’ve set for myself and go beyond what God has prepared for me. It’s time to stop fearing. It’s time for the walls of Jericho to tear down completely. It’s not easy, but I’ve got the armor of God on me and I’m equipped with His word. It’s time to fight my battle off of myself.
Thank you Jesus, for such a wonderful confirmation. :’)
I got called heartless today and hearing that kind of hurts. Because I didn’t wish I would be emotionless like that.
8 things to Remember during the Storms of Life…
1. God is in full control of the timing and intensity of your trial and will not allow it to go beyond His boundaries.
2. He has a specific purpose for your suffering which you may not understand until it is over.
3. This trial will prove to be profitable if you submit to God and trust Him through it.
4. Trying situations are opportunities for faith to prove genuine and grow stronger.
5. When you endure extreme pressure with unexplainable peace and joy, the Lord will demonstrate His sustaining power to a watching world.
6. Your difficulties are used by the Father to produce Christ-like character.
7. God will walk with you through all trials.
8. The Holy Spirit will enable you not only to survive but also to come out a conqueror.
It’s amazing how cell group and service interlinked so perfectly to fit exactly what God has been speaking to me. Weiren shared about visions and dreams, and obtaining faith; exactly what The Lord has been showing me and speaking to me about.
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident.
4 One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.
6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,”
My heart said to You, “Your face, Lord, I will seek.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!
All the visions and dreams that I have, it’s like God is telling me to continue waiting on Him. Whatever it is, do not quit. Do not stop at one encounter, go through it till the end. Because you gotta go through for a breakthrough. People may try to pull me down, but my footing is in Christ and it’s more than enough for me.
Pastor Tan shared and prayed about the Arise & Build during service today and he mentioned something with emphasis. He said we were to care for each other and love each other unconditionally in this season and even forever. “BAM!” Exactly what God has been repeating to me.
Loving unconditionally. Serving fervently.
This is definitely my life’s message. I feel that The Lord is really putting me to a test of tearing my walls of Jericho down. I’ve been saved by love, I should learn to love. Love love and love even more, until the numbness disappears. People say love hurts. But I think not being able to love and not feeling any emotions hurts the most in the world. It’s really scary knowing that I can’t feel and it disgusts me. I really am afraid. Slowly but surely, I know God wants to edify me; instill feelings into me.
Victory always comes through God’s plan of deliverance — never ours. One day, I pray for a great tenacity of faith to overcome this barrier and start loving people sincerely and unconditionally.
There’s a time when you have no idea what happens in your life. Life doesn’t go the way you plan. Problems come and you feel like giving up. You ask, “Why is this happening to me, God?” You want an answer so you know where you should go, but you just can’t get it.
You ask “Why?” because you don’t understand the reason God puts you into the situation and where He will bring you from there. The truth is, you can’t always understand God’s works, but that’s alright. You don’t have to understand everything. All you need is to believe that God has a beautiful plan for you. Be faithful. Perhaps you can’t see it, but that doesn’t mean God doesn’t have a great plan for you. Perhaps bad things happen, but that doesn’t mean God doesn’t love you. Have faith and you’ll see hope.
God makes everything beautiful at the right time. If it’s not beautiful, it’s just not the right time yet.
What I always believe is, God never fails. He never makes mistake. Even when bad things happen, God can still use it for something amazing. You know that God works all things together for good. “All things” here means both good and bad things, even when it’s caused by your own mistakes. So when bad things happen, look beyond what you see. Don’t look to the problems. Look to the beautiful purpose behind it. It’s like a movie. To create a great story, the creator must arrange all the good and bad things together before he comes to the great ending. Without all of them, there’s no great story.
All you need is to believe. Have faith.
Life is not perfect and that’s ok. Sometimes it is just too mysterious. Stop guessing and start doing the right thing. Someday, what you don’t understand today will make sense.
Credits: http://www.wilzkanadi.com/2013/10/why-is-this-happening-to-me.html?m=1 — Wilson Kanadi
| I just had to share this because this guy really inspires me and never fail to leave me in awe and agreement with his words. A true warrior to God and a blessing to many. He has my greatest admiration. |
— Ragen Chastain (via larmoyante)
Finally, the day has come. I’ve moved into my new house! Somehow, I feel like a city girl moving into a rural town. Because my old neighborhood has everything, from market to convenience stores to a supermarket to a Safra right opposite my house. But in this new neighborhood, there really isn’t much except for one shopping centre and the mrt station. But what I like about my new neighborhood is that it’s a really quiet and peaceful area. The roads are so empty that I don’t even need to press the traffic light to cross the road. I just jaywalk like a boss across! :D And because it is quiet, I can stroll home under the dim street lights and just sing to God and worship Him. It’s really amazing. Definitely, I will miss my old neighborhood a lot since I’ve stayed there for more than a decade. But I’m sure God has placed me here for a purpose and I know what He wants me to do.
Honestly, the past few weeks have been incredibly tough and there were so many times I really couldn’t feel God’s presence at all no matter what I do. My family is in a major financial crisis and my brother hasn’t been doing well in his academics. I was so worried about everything that was going on and started blaming myself; for being such an incapable daughter to my mum, for not being a good enough sister to my bro, and for not placing God first in every decision that I’ve made. But today’s service was really special to me. It was nothing phenomenal but I felt the presence of God so strongly. The word “gratefulness” just flooded my mind and overwhelmed me so deeply that a mixture of sad and joyful tears just streamed down my cheeks freely. God has blessed me with a new roof over my head for His higher purpose. Yes, no doubt my mum has been stressed out with all the bills to pay, but God reminded me that I’m a beloved child of His and I shouldn’t blame myself. Instead, lift up all burdens unto Him, let Him take total control and just trust Him for financial blessings.
I’m just so extremely grateful to God for believing in me that even though nothing seems to be going right, He always open new doors for me. Not just that, He always leads me through it. I just pray for a miracle, just really hope that everything will go well. Even so, His grace is always enough for me. Just His presence, it’s enough for me.
If you are facing difficulty today, if there seems to be massive walls standing in the way of your breakthrough, remember, praise precedes the victory. Why don’t you do like the Israelites and give a shout of praise anyway. Stand and believe that God is at work even if you don’t see it. Before long, those walls will come down, and you’ll move forward into the victory He has prepared for you!